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Finals are almost over! Four down and only one to go. I am out of here tomorrow. I will miss all of my friends greatly, but I am excited for what the summer has in store. I am sure we will all get together in the summer. In fact, I am pretty sure that I am going to have a back to school cookout @ my house sometime in August, so everyone is invited to that. I will give you more details later either through a call or by e-mail. Well, I have decided not to pursue my crush; well, at least not til next semester. Just too many things going on. Mexico, classes, tennis, church, family stuff, etc. I just want to see if my feelings change or not. If they do not, than I better say something. Oh well, on a lighter note, I am ready for the AR finale tonight. If only it will be as dramatic as our own re-enactment. How great it would be? Well, I apologize for all those who are just dying to read my journal ( which I know it is an extremely high number (yeah right!) for my lack of updates over the past week. Oh well, what can I say; to much studying in to little time. Everyone have a great week and a great summer.

God Bless,

P.Diddy

Today, What can I say. It is possible that today could be the best day and worst day of the year. So many things are going through my head. First, off the race it self. Congratulations to the Professional Wrestlers, Beth and Melissa for winning the Tennessee Valley Amazing Race. Good times. Then we discovered that Courtney had had an accident and was at the hospital. Brwyan, Adam, Britney W., and Melissa along with Britney H and Brian M. were already there- Me, Carrie, Shawn, and Beth made our way to the hospital. Courtney seems to be doing fine, but we are not sure about how her lower back is. Hopefully the x-ray results will not be bad. Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers. She is a very special person and friend of mine. Then to have that happen; I was not even ready for what came next; I am not going to go into details but we had an encounter with some of hospital security guards about a disfunctional cross-bar to get out of the hospital parking lot. It was a total mess- But I am not going to go into details- I am just ready for summer and to be home. Finals, tennis conflicts, injuries of friends, encounters with irate police, and having a crush on a girl and not being able to act on it is just enough. I am just lifting it up to God. That is all that I can do. I just want to pray for all the conflicts that I am going through at the moment and I hope God will give me the strength to get through it all. I know that he is bigger than anything that I will ever face. It is also kind of sad that I write about someone that I feel an attraction to and really like, but cannot tell it to her. I hope I can get enough confidence to let her know my feelings even if she is not interested in me. I would rather her know than not know; I can't wait and just expect for things to fall in place; She is too attractive inside and outside. I am afraid I might lose any chance of knowing her or dating her if I do not express my feelings. If I could tell her one thing it would that I am not sure why I like her so much because I do not know her as well as I would like but there is just something about her that I can't describe. There is just an aura about her. I don't know- those are just some thoughts I have when I think about her or see her- Maybe if I am lucky she will look at me with just a fraction of the way I see her. Well, to all a good night- Here is to a better Sunday.

Well, tomorrow is the Tennessee Amazing Race. I am pumped even though I am not actually in the race. Who will win? The Wrestlers, the Chair Restorers, the Doubles Partners, Father and Daughter, or the Schickimicki Girls? It will be a sight to see. Hope the weather is good and the race goes well! What a long day it has been- One of my classes was even canceled and it still felt like an eternity. Watched Blade Trinity with some friends. Would definetely recommend it. Creamery was good- Well, I think I am actually going to go to bed- I need to catch up on some much needed rest- A good night to all-

Today was interesting. I am so ready for school to be over. Project after Project, Paper after Paper, Exam after Exam; it is getting old. There has been so much going on. The whole conflict with the tennis team has also seemed to stress me out. I have finally come to terms about the whole situation and have decided to continue to play b/c I love tennis and love the feeling of working hard and being out on the court. 757 went good tonight. I thank God so much that he introduced me to this great group of people in the fall and I have grown to know each one of them. The ministry group was truly an answer to prayer and it has continued to stregthen my faith and friendhips on campus. I pray that the ministry will grow and that it will be successful during the fall semester. I have had such a great year. I could not asked for better friends- My friends have been so great in supporting me and putting up with all my crap whether it was about tennis, school, girls, family, etc. Just anything. On another note, I am kind of in a dilemma b/c there is this girl that is just amazing. She has the most beautiful scarlet hair and her smile just paralyzes me. It is kind of funny b/c she does not know me very well. All I know is that I find her very attractive; she is smart, funny, beautiful, and a good christian. She is one of a kind and I wish I could tell her all these things and possibly take her out to get to know her better, but she probably would think that I was a weirdo or something. I had a class with her last semester and I really wish I had one with her now. I am just going to pray about it and hopefully things will work out. Well, I guess I should get back to Spanish- I have so much busy work to do-

- Chicken with a major crush

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